The Tucci's

He didn't lie

2010-02-05T10:20:00.004-07:00

About 3 weeks ago Matteo cut his hair almost to the scalp with those scissors that hardly cut paper. So, he got in some trouble for doing something wrong. ( Not that I dont remember doing that twice at a much older age)And all the while I tried not to laugh. I did made it through.

The scissors were taken away. Then a couple a days ago a cute little face said to his mom. " Mommy I promise if you let me use my scissors I wont cute my hair. All I want to do is make valentines for my friends". Melt my heart of course you can buddy but no haircutting. He played and cut for more than a hour. Wow I thought this is great. " ummm mommy, I didnt cut my hair, but I did cut a hole in my pajama pants and top". Parenting fail, I laughed.

Lost my post and January Birthdays

2010-01-15T19:11:00.006-07:00

I wrote,edited and posted pictures on my first post in about 3 months. And then I accidently erased the entire thing. Gone, poof, see ya later. I almost cried but I didnt.

So here we go again!

On January 4th my little man turned 4!He loved Christmas and his birthday this. He was so into it...

January 10th was Frankie's big day she turned 13. I am officially the mother of a teenager. She is making the big move out to BC ahead of us. I dont know what I will do without her for over 2 months....

Man I love those too. We had such a good day the three of us taking pictures. Frankie had alot of great ideas. She loves photography. They are both artistic and they certainly didnt get it from me.

Devil Kitty

2009-10-02T20:49:00.008-06:00

Quite the imagination on this one....His new favorite song goes something like this, Hey ScoobyDoo they are coming OVER you,better solve that misery!

Moving On

2009-09-19T15:27:00.003-06:00

We are selling the house,along with alittle bit of our dreams. So many problems. Some people who were supposed to be working for us and instead worked against us. But you know what 8 mos ago when I thought my marriage was falling apart, I dont think we would have been able to make it through this. But we are without fighting,namecalling and hurt feelings.We have been through so much this past year and we are dealing.

So we are taking a break and moving to something like this....
And who knows if we like it,maybe we will buy it.We may just have to start a new dream. But at least we have eachother and that is all that really matters....

Chugging Along

2009-08-24T17:18:00.005-06:00

Been Awhile but I am still here....

So much going on and most of it not pleasant. This has been one of the more turbulant times of my life. But we will get through and I know others have been through worse. I dont want to feel like I am complaining all the time. But in all reality, I dont say much. Aside from a bit of venting on Twitter....

But all the same I have so much to be thankful for..

A stronger bond with my husband.

A stronger self

Two of the best kids around(even though we are going through Early teens with one}

And really that is all I can ask for...

Well that and maybe a small lottery!

The Dancer and the Swimmer

2009-06-04T17:59:00.004-06:00

The Dancer jazz 5 completed
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The Swimmer's 4th class

100 Things

2009-05-19T00:41:00.003-06:00

1. This may take me days

2. I love Flips Flops and wear them all day long in the house

3. I used to hate flip flops because of the huge gap between my big toe

4. My aunt told me when I was little I had six toes when I was born and the doctor cut one off. Hence the big gap

5. That was untrue

6. I have only one sibling a brother

7. I used to dream I had many more siblings and would name them

8. My bestfriend is my cousin

9. my former bestfriend and I hardly speak anymore. We didnt have a fight but I was tired of a friendship being so much work.

10. My daughter was an "accident" and my son was a "miracle" who took eight years to have

11. I am terrible at math aside from adding and counting back change

12. In grade 11 Mr.Smith said he would pass me in the crappy math class,if I promised not to take it in grade 12.

13. I didnt take it

14. my parents moved 3hours away in the summer before grade 12

15. I moved with them and then begged to go back and graduate with my friends

16. I loved grade 12 but I majorly rebelled

17. I stayed with highschool bestfriend and her family

18. I saw her dad beat her mom twice{my only time ever witnessing domestic violence to this day}

19. She kicked him out and then took him back

20. Supposedly they are all happier now and the abuse has stopped

21. I had a very serious boyfriend that summer and after we graduated I moved in with him and his family

22. In hindsight it was a mistake, we were too young

23. I met my husband on the rebound

24. We were also too young

25. His parents blamed me for his rebelling

26. It wasnt true I used to tell him to go home to his family

27. We got married because we were pregnant but we were already engaged

28. My mom and I planned a huge Italian wedding in 3 months.

29. People told me invite alot they dont all come. We invited 320. My husbands side was almost double.

30. 321 came

31. We got a few strange requests. One second cousin on Joes side called and asked if he could bring his girlfriends parents because she wasnt allowed overnight to another city.

32. Our MC another second cousin on the same side called and asked if he could bring his bodygaurd and wife. { he was modern day mafia}

33. The bodygaurd gave us a huge boosta{envelope}

34. There was a huge fight the next day

35. It was not caused by my family but has been blamed on us for the last 13 years'

36. My mother in law made a huge scene the day after and I didnt see it.If I would have there might have been an anullment.

37. For about 9 years I didnt call my in laws anything.

38. It was awkward. I know call them maria and Frank.

39. My brother in law calls them mom and dad.

40. Guess who is not the favorite

41. I have a phobia. It is the color pink. I cannot wear anything pink ever.

42. It was ok for my daughter to wear pink.

43. I will cut out a tag on the inside if it has pink on it.

44. I do not know when it started. I remember wearing pink in grade seven. i dont remember any particular thing that caused this.

45. In grade 12 My highschool bestfriend, my boyfriend and myself were in a pretty bad accident. The first thing I asked was is anybody wearing anything pink?

46. people were really rude to us at the accident scene and very nice to the other lady driver. They took her in the first ambulance. Even though it turns out I was the most hurt.

47. My boyfriend got a ticket that day and then his dad made him dispute it. Turns out the entire accident was the other ladys fault and they assumed it was us because we were teenagers. The ticket was dismissed.

48. I bite my nails and have for my whole life.

49. My biggest pet peeve is people who chew loudly or with their mouths open. It doesnt bother me if it is children only adults.

50. It is 2:30am I have to go to bed. I am an insomniac. And I know I have made many grammer and spelling mistaked. But I am tired.

51. I grew apart from most of my friends from highschool because I got married and had frankie by the time i was 20. We didnt have anything in common anymore.

52. but Facebook is so great for reconnecting

53. our house we are remodelling may be the death of us

54. I want to have one more child.

55. Not to sure is that will ever happen

56. I never thought I would only have 2 children

57. We packed up and moved 2 provinces away 3 years ago

58. My labour with Matteo was terrible

59. He fell out on the bed

60. The nurses didnt believe I was so far along in my labour,they sent me home

61. I didnt want to go. I knew the monitor was wrong

62. Then I didnt want to go back and if I would have waited 20 more minutes he would have been born at home

63. From the time I got home and back to the hospital was 41 minutes

64. It was so painful but so fast

65. I was had uncontrollable shaking after

66. I wouldnt let the nurse who sent me home and laughed at me when I got back come in the delivery room

67. But that being said the 2 nurses who delivered him were wonderful

68. I have had a weight problem my entire adult life

69. I have also had poly Cystic ovarian syndrome

70. They kinda go hand in hand and make one harder than the other

71. its kind it hard to turn off my brain at night

72. I sleep so restlessly

73. thinking about something that smells bad{rotten food} will make me gag

74. actually smelling it I will throw up

75. I hate mushrooms with a passion

76. It took me years to be able to cook them for my husband

77. I do not like tomatoes

78. But I like pasta sauce and ketchup

79. It is the texture I think

80. Other than those 2 I pretty much like all other vegetables

81. I could do without fruit. Rather a vegetable

82. I didnt like steak until becoming an adult

83. Now I love it

84. I hope to move back To Mission, when Frankie graduates

85. That is where i grew up not where I moved from recently

86. Frankie will go to school there. She likes it too

87. My husband is gone to work half of the month

88. I like it

89. Not to be mean but I am kinda a loner

90. I take after my aunt with this not my mother

91. My parents are attached at the hip

92. My son is 3 and I am having the hardest time potty training him

93. My daughter was no problem

94. My daughter slept in my bed until she was 6

95. my son is heading down the same path

96. I was never quiet around my children when the slept

97. They can sleep through anything

98. I am very unorganized

99. I get sidetracked very easily

100. I cannot wait to be in my own house again

Alittle more Spring please

2009-04-03T01:17:00.006-06:00

We went out to play. It was sunny. But still frozen.

Matteo's imagination is so vivid. Frankie had two make believe friends Gordy and Nice. They went everywhere with us. But Matteo just in the last 2 weeks everything has become make believe. He has animals,toys friends and he acts out characters and animals. He has really been cracking me up.While we were outside he was a deer with a "huge rack".

Then the neighbour decided to work on his tractor. We dont live on farmland buddy. I got a cute picture of him on it but then it was like being in L.A and our fun was over.

Star Search

2009-03-18T13:18:00.003-06:00

Some days I dont feel a day over 29. But then I would have been 17 when I had this star.

She brought tears to my eyes. The 3 girls that got picked were 15 and have done alot of performing. Including Telemiracle. But Frankie was the youngest and totally was in the top five.There were ten girls. She says i am only saying it because she is mine. Untrue,she was wonderful and ya she is mine but that doesnt count.

Doctors,needles and Sphincters oh my....

2009-03-03T19:39:00.011-07:00

Exhausted after a day of poking and proding.

Well, sometimes a mom does know a thing or two. I knew Matteo didnt have Asthma. And the specialist confirmed it today!He has a weak Sphincter..

I didnt even know we had one let alone two of these,but we do. One is at the top of the stomach and one at the bottom.His weak one is the top. What does this mean? Well it means we will have to continue worrying everytime he coughs that there will be vomit. The alternative is a life threatening operation. Ummm pretty sure we can live with some puke!And he may grow out of it.

The Doctor did tell me what I had already figured.Many many doctors are taking the easy way out and labeling kids with asthma.

We also went for his first blood tests.That was traumatic for both of us. He kept moving so the had to poke him 3 times and dig around it was terrible.The nurse had to completly cover my 37pound three year old baby with her entire body. As well as me holding down his legs and one hand on his chest.He is a tough little guy.The blood tests are to check his lymphnoids and to try and figure out why a little scratch becomes a staph infection.All in all it was a very informative day.

But he is on the mend and maybe if he rested alittle he would get 100% better.This kid never sits still!

Mama guilt

2009-02-24T23:14:00.004-07:00

Well, the sickie bug has hit Matteo. I think I forgot to knock on wood when I said he hadnt been sick in a while. I just dont get it with him. Most kids get sick and within a week they are better. Not him nooo. He gets sicker and sicker and we are close to 2 weeks now. It is times like this when my mommy guilt comes out. I never breastfed him not one time. I had planned to do just alittle and I didnt.{After what I considered a traumatic birth experience}. I did breastfeed Frankie for almost seven months and I feel she is much healthier.

But I still believe in a mothers choice and despise it when other moms are judgemental.It was my choice. I am a large, extremely large breasted woman and unless you are,you cannot possibly understand what it is like to breastfeed. Aside from the fact I couldnt even find a nursing bra in my size. And I am sure online I could have got one.But at the time I didnt have the means for online shopping.

With Frankie I was much smaller but have always been big in that department and I remembered how hard it was. Trying not to suffocate my little baby with a 40 pound weight on her face.

But that all being said,Why now do I feel so guilty. It is something I cannot change. But if I do have one more. If I am so blessed.I think I would try to breastfeed at least for a couple weeks.

We are off to see the doctor tomorrow and to ask for a referral to a peditrician.Get better little boy cause mama is mighty tired.

Daddy cut off his hair. I was so sad it took so long to grow out.But it is already like 2 inches longer.So maybe we will try again.

Even on a sad day...He cracks me up

2009-02-07T10:58:00.002-07:00

If I am being honest....

2009-02-03T21:45:00.004-07:00

If I am being truly honest, I am not happy with myself. It is something I have to work and I am trying.

If I am being honest, I have put off meeting new people in Saskatchewan.

If I am being honest I despise intimacy with my husband right now.

If I am being honest I avoid mirrors at all costs.

If I am being honest I have been afraid to make friends.

Now today I have decided.I have to respect myself,if I dont how can I expect other people too. I will admitt I am on a life change. In the process I have lost 19 pounds.I have also come to realize if someone doesnt like me because of how I look,then it wasnt worth being their friend anyway.I am not doormat and I am not a victim. And I need to stop acting as such.

My husband and I have set up counselling. We have decided we have something worth saving. We will not just throw away 14 years together and 12 and half years of marriage.

This is me,Brandee. Hello

Happy birthday to my favorite girl

2009-01-10T10:39:00.006-07:00

Guess who is twelve today!!!

When we were going through infertility for all of those years people would always say maybe this summer,maybe in September. And just abit before I got pregnant,my mom said the same thing to me. And I told her oh no I think I am a winter breeder. And low and behold my baby that was soon to be concieved was due December 31st. He was late his sister was early. So Matteo was born 6 days before his sisters birthday. That birthday was a hard one for Frankie she was turning nine and people would phone and ask her about her baby brother and forget her birthday. She was so conflicted so happy to have a sibling that she had wanted for years. But after being the only child on both sides there were now 3 new babies. A hard adjustment but she took it all on like a champ.

A few things about Frankie:

She loves her brother(but he absolutely is a pest)
She loves music ( and is very talented)
She loves clothes
She loves brandname clothes
She loves hanging out with her friends
She has a large group of friends who are boys
She dislike alot of veggies ( but we can always find a few basics)
She doesnt really like to wear red ( but she looks really cute in it)
She has a quick temper
She cannot for the life her keep her room clean(worse than any child I have ever known)

last year of preteen and only 364 more days till she is a teenager..... yikes

Guess who's 3!

2009-01-06T20:58:00.008-07:00

Matteo turned 3 on January 4th. He is such a big boy. We were going to try to quite the soother habit on the 5th. Well as of January 1st it is a gonner. He has asked for it a couple times but no biggy.

A Matteoism

mama: Matteo you need to have some patience.

Matteo: The patience is in the dishwasher.

My life was missing something and when this little miracle was born all the pieces fit....

New Year's Eve

2009-01-01T01:18:00.005-07:00

Wii New Years Eve night. We even got gramma to play!

Joe made us some Strawberry wine. I am not a drinker but with alittle sprite it was really good!
Low key night,but fun was had by all!

Merry Chrstmas

2008-12-24T08:02:00.006-07:00

Merry Christmas! From my family to yours........

The Franklin concert. Matteo made it half way through.He had a missed his nap,so I new that we were headed for disaster...

Frankie didnt want to go.Sometimes the age gap is alittle difficult.Then we stayed in a hotel,that I have tried twice and I have decided i won't be staying there again.But of course since Matteo fell asleep at Franklin. He was all about partying at the hotel and didnt go to sleep until 1am.Yikes!!

Have a safe and Happy Christmas!

My oldest baby

2008-12-09T01:41:00.010-07:00

Sometimes I cant believe my first baby is almost 12!!

Here she is around 4 years old.

Here she is in a picture she took herself and edited. Wearing her first pair of glasses.

Man, I love this girl......

Teach what we Preach

2008-11-19T00:38:00.008-07:00

Today Matteo told his sister "put me down freak". And also said a swear to his dad. Needless to say I am less than happy about it and had to put his daddy in a timeout! {Ok,I must admit the freak thing took me by so much surprise,I laughed and hard}.But the swearing not so funny.

A big problem I have found in this house that daddy works away for two weeks at a time and it is getting really hard for him to remember we are not "the guys".He has never been an overly sensitive man,ok not sensitive at all. I make up for the both of us I think. But Matteo is so much more impressionable than Frankie. When she was four and got tricked into saying crap,she almost had a breakdown. Not my little man,it cracks him up and he listens intently for any type of bad word for correcting.I feel like this is an uphill battle that daddy doesn't think is such a big deal.

Matteo is such a handfull{like watching 3 kids},I do note need to add swearing to the mix!But on that not he can be so peaceful....

WHEN HE IS SLEEPING!

Date and glasses

2008-11-03T14:51:00.009-07:00

This is me in my new glasses.
I have to tell you,they have caused quite a stir on facebook. My family and friends have been praising the look.But they said if they didnt know it was my page they wouldnt know it was me. I dont think I look that different.I think it is my hair also.
Oh well I have to wear them though,because my left eye has gotten dramatically worse and I just had my old pair for show. I never wore them.
Matteo and I had a great time at Thomas and he got a ton of loot,the guy next to us commented on all his stuff."Boy,you got everything" he said to Matteo.Well he did get alot but I would never say anything that rudely to someone.Because you know what there was a time when I wouldnt have been able to afford any of it,let alone a ticket. So,if I want to do something special for my kids I will. And yes I will admit they have been alittle spoiled lately,but so what.

We topped it all off by a visit to Chukie Cheese the next day on the way home.After a nice sleep in a big hotel bed.Just me and my little guy,it was great.

Happy Halloween

2008-10-31T09:55:00.003-06:00

Happy Halloween,

Woody and the pirate will get ready soon. And Woody actually gets it this year,so he is really excited. It is kinda crazy to have one that wants to go out in a group and one that needs his mama!Be safe out there

Big Date

2008-10-28T11:58:00.003-06:00

Me and my best boy are going on a date. No not Joe,my little man. We are heading to Regina for an overnight stay. A hotel with an Aligator(elevator). Dinner and then Thomas The Train live. So exciting. Then some lunch and a little playing at Chuckie Cheese tomorrow.

Should be fun, Frankie and I will go on a Regina date next month to see Twilight the movie.I am actually looking forward to some toddler time and some alone time when he sleeps.

Dreaming

2008-10-24T08:49:00.004-06:00

Almost nine months later and Matteo can't stop talking about "Disneyland in California". Money well spent I think.
He even talks about it in his sleep.
I guess Frankie has decided "if you can't beat em,join em".

Matteo and his Tee Tee

2008-10-20T00:35:00.003-06:00

Matteo sure loves his Tee Tee{grandpa}.They are best buds. I really think he is my dads bestfriend.We have no idea why he calls him Tee Tee.And when he catches himself saying grandpa,which he is more than capable of,he always corrects himself.

He is alittle lost right now without his buddy,Tee Tee. The six week take care of your heart break is over and now the boys cant play as much.

It is too early for this

2008-10-12T16:31:00.006-06:00

It is way to early for this,couldnt we at least make it till Halloween!

And it is actually sticking. Everytime I look at weather network they push the snow onto the next day.We were expecting Saskpower to start digging this week,Maybe not now. It does look pretty though,but thats not the point.It is such a hassle.

Why did I move to Saskatchewan again?
Oh ya it is because I love this,

So,I guess we will stay inside and eat our Thanksgiving ham.And be thankful for all we have and the warm roof over our heads.... And maybe we will do "Loga" instead.

Happy Thanksgiving!

3 bugs in a rug

2008-10-05T15:38:00.005-06:00

I dont know how they can sleep like this.... But they did all night. I was blessed with 2 kids who can sleep through anything.It is just the geting them to sleep thing.....

This bed has been called the "little Bed" at my Nonna's house for at least 32 years that I have been alive.{I am sure with a mattress change in there somewhere}.But the funny thing is I remember doing the same thing with my own cousins and know its our children.......

My Orange belted girl and her biggest fan

2008-10-02T20:03:00.005-06:00

Frankie advanced two belts in Karate,she is now a orange belt. I am so proud of her. Her bestfriend that asked Frankie to join Karate with her,quit. And Frankie never faltered and said of course I want to join again. Qualities of a leader hopefully,not a follower.

The photo that wouldnt load

2008-09-18T01:56:00.005-06:00

All cousins and spouses,doing the "chee" smile. Italian joke with them.
These two pictures are from Joes other cousins wedding last year,but since I didnt have a blog back then,I will show them now.

My beautiful guest book girl:
A girl and her dad:
And our Lobster feast. My mom and dad went on a holiday to Nova Scotia(my moms dream)and flew 10 lobsters and freash scallops home.Yummo! That blond guy is my dad and yes biological!People always thought I must have been from a previous marriage my mom had.But since they been together since she was 15 and got married straight out of highschool.Its highly unlikely!They just celebrated their 33rd.
Arent they cute.They both are going though some health scares right now,they have had so much stress with my brother.I hope they will both be ok and live long and healthy lives.Love you both.

Cause its been awhile

2008-09-15T20:59:00.008-06:00

I think I went through a dry spell,happens to the best of us I suppose.We did so much on our trip to BC and then if you can believe it Joe and I got suckered into flying down to BC ourselves a couple weeks later for another wedding. His cousins this time. It was nice,quick,expensive and my first time away from Matteo for more than a night.
The first wedding we went to was my baby cousin Tracy,who by the way is not a baby and has a beautiful little girl herself.She was a junior bridesmaid at my wedding when she was 12. Our familes are so close because we were raised together.
The next picture is my favorite,it brings tears to my eyes each time I look at it. This is my Nonna(gramma) and all of her great grandchildren starting from my Frankie being the oldest.And finishes with my cousin Jamies twins who were barly a month old at their aunties wedding.This is also very special being that my mom and dad got to bring my niece Alyse.My brother is not available right now(another post in its self)and her mom is shall we say alittle difficult sometimes.But she let us have her for 4 whole days.She is the one standing on the chair crying for Frankie to hold her.
It was a wonderful day,with only my brother missing.

I am having a hard time posting pictures on this one. So I will had the picture of Joes cousins wedding next time and it wont be such a long stretch.

The Ocean

2008-08-19T12:31:00.005-06:00

One thing we did on vacation was go to the ocean in Whiterock. My cousin Booked us a hotel for my belated birthday present. We had so much fun and the kids experienced some firsts,like turning over rocks to look for crabs.

Matteo had alot of fun after he got over his fear. But he sure ended up with a nasty rash between his legs from the sand! He walked a little funny for a couple days but I am sure he would say it was worth it!

Back and not quite ready to roll

2008-08-16T13:50:00.003-06:00

We are back! We were gone for 28 days! Such a long haul and of course Matteo's asthma had to make a nice comeback on the last couple days. It always seems to happen on the tail end off our trips.There we were in Hope Bc on the side of the highway down in the bushes with snakes,cleaning up a pukey 2 year old.

Needless to say the trip that always takes 2 days home, took 3 this time.But all and all it was one of our better ones. But so hot, and at my Nonna's{gramma}. There is no air conditioning, but forget that there is no air flow. Because she doesnt open the windows. And in Vancouver it seems that they are having problems with the little 4 legged friends. So, between that and the heat,I dont think I slept more than 4 hrs a night there. Thankfully,in Kamloops for the almost 2 weeks we were there,we did have air conditioning and no little friends.

We did alot and of course i did not take near enough pictures. I am terrible with that. But I will post some next and a few of the events we did do.

We're off,we're off,well almost!

2008-07-14T14:18:00.003-06:00

This time tomorrow I hope to be somewhere close to the Saskatchewan and Alberta border.We are heading to BC. Mom,the kids and I. Joe will meet us by plane on the 25th.This time I am going to try to make it into BC before stopping for the night,cause the journey is 3 hrs longer this time.

Some of plans include: visiting and staying an entire week with my Nonna(gramma),while there spending a week and a half with cousins.(Who are also my bestfriends). Going to Whiterock overnight in a fancy hotel on the ocean.A present for my birthday from my cousin. Playland,going to discount hair salon store with a different cousin to get a expensive flat iron at her cost.Yippee.Lots and lots of shopping.And my little cousins wedding.Where does time go she was 12 in my wedding. Now she is a mama and getting married.

Then we are off to Joes family. Which is not quite the same.2 weeks there,but good news his mom now has internet. So half way through the trip I will at least be able to catch up abit.I do have friends and my niece in kamloops to spend time with. Then it is back to Vancouver to pick up my mom,spend a couple days then do the journey back home again.

So I am off..........

5 Things and Time ago

2008-06-28T12:51:00.003-06:00

I felt like I needed something to replace my last post:

10 years ago: I was 22 years old. I had a 2 year old and we had moved away from our families to Vancouver. I loved being "home" and Joe didnt so we moved back to Kamloops,the next year.

5 years ago: I was working two jobs and living in our first real "owned home". And I was still recovering from the 3 surgeries on my ankle. And taking a break from the fertility game.

1 year ago: Life was pretty much the same as it is now. Frankie finishing school. Joe working. But we still lived in our own house.

Yesterday: I had alot of appointments,payed for the lawnmower to be fixed.Getting ready for Mom,dad and Joe to come home.

5 snacks I like: popcorn,chocolate,almonds,pop{why i can never loose weight}, sunflwer seeds

5 books I like to read: I love to read but havent done it much lately,People magazine,romance novels{Nora Roberts},a book on polgamy right now.Sears,Computer articles

5 foods I dislike: Tomatoes { but I will eat sauce,salsa,ketchup} just no chunks.Mushrooms{i do not even like the smell} Cooked carrots.love them raw. Liver. Pizza Pops.

5 bad habits: Not sticking to a diet,biting my nails,to much snacks,skipping meals,not enough water

5 pet peeves: rudeness,cashiers who do not say hello,bragging,empty carton in the fridge,telemarketers

5 things I enjoy: my children,my cousins,when my children are happy,watching dancing,seafood{like I am having tonight}

5 TV shows I like: Young and the Restless{memories of when I used to watch it,with my Gramma} So You think You can dance.Jon and Kate plus eight{although I find Kate alittle to controlling} Amazing race.Reruns of Friends,everbody loves Raymond

5 people I would love to meet: Gordan Ramsey,Jon and Kate,this is hard. I would love to meet up with a few friends that I drifted apart from. Mostly because my life started so much sooner than theirs.

5 things I would never wear: bikini{even if I were skinny} tube top {same} pink{never,ever. I will have to tell you about my weird pink phobia one day}long socks,wool

Thats it, afew things about myself. One day I will have to do the 100 things about myself. But then this took me long enough!

Hard week, but it is shaping up nicely

2008-06-26T22:56:00.006-06:00

I have had a hard week. I think it may have been the hardest week of married life but, also groundbreaking.

The other night on the phone with Joe I lost it.To make a long long story short. I finally let my husband have it. Dont get me wrong, he loves me but honestly most of the time does a pretty crappy time of showing it. He is a man's man and I have always known this.But it was breaking me down little by little and I snapped. And after he finished with being angry and alittle nasty. I think it hit him that i was not kidding. {this did not all happen in one night}

I have let him know, that I need some understanding, compassion and decency in my life. And I will not be his or anyone elses punching bag any longer. And after it all I felt physically sick litterly.But also at a kind of peace.

Well, we are going to go to marrige conselling and without joe being forced. This is a major breakthrough for him. Usally tough guy would say it was for sissys.

Tonight was wonderful,we had a really nice conversation on the phone and for the first time in years i didnt feel like I was in "trouble" for something. Dont get we wrong i am not a total pushover, but I put up with alot of negative people in my life. And I find myself giving in alot. Well, not anymore because I owe to my daughter to show her the proper way for a woman to be treated.

Frankie did overhear some cause she was hiding on the stairs, but we had a wonderful talk and for the first time I was asked "are you guys getting a divorce". And it broke my heart. No I dont think we are, but honestly I finaly feel strong enough to say that if I feel that things are returning to old ways. I have enough strengh to ask for one. Which is sad in a way,but good in the way that I am reclaiming myself. Lets pray it never comes to that,because I love my husband. But I have to learn to love myself again.

Ok enough of the deep stuff, Frankie had a "no more miss ..... party". If you remember from a previous post that she had a pretty difficult teacher this year. So she had her 5 best gal pals over for a sleepover. It brings back so many memories. Only back then I didnt have my own digital camera, and half of the film would've been exposed. Girl Power!

Prices like Gold and Red Spots

2008-06-16T21:51:00.007-06:00

We spent the Fathers Day weekend without any Fathers around.It seems like Joe is always working his two weeks on during any sort of holiday. He has missed all our birthdays, Easter,Thanksgiving,Halloween,Mothers Day and now Fathers day,this past year. But we try to celebrate on alternate days. We just always make sure he is home for Christmas. Although he did miss New Years. Maybe next year will work out differently.
We were talking though about how I never make him feel bad for missing these things. There are a couple wives of guys where he works, that make their husbands feel crappy about it.Phone them crying and everything. These guys have pretty stressfull jobs and do not need the added stress of things they cannot change. It is a hard life but they do it for their families and so we can for the most part stay home if we want.I appreciate what he does and I KNOW, I could never do it. Everytime he comes home he notices the kids have grown or their hair is longer. And especially all the new stuff Matteo comes up with. Anyway, Joe we appreciate you!

So, Friday we let Frankie skip the afternoon of school and we took Gramma with us. We dropped off daddy and went Chuckie Cheese,Winners and Tony Roma's for dinner. Was alot of fun but we got home really late. We had a double header soccer morning. And yippee Frankie scored a goal.

Then we went to Ituna for a community garage sale. OM Goodness, it was the funniest garage sales ever. Let alone most of it belonged in a dumpster!(literly)The rest was priced like gold,some of which were actually priced higher than retail.A couple examples,White Rain Tame shampoo in the older packaging selling for $5.00. Retail $2.49. A big durable but beat up kids slide $250.00 dollars. I said pardon me and had to turn around do hide my chuckles! What has happened to bargains.

Sunday, was uneventful except for Matteo got Hand,Foot Mouth Disease. Which after looking it up sounds much worse than it is. He didnt have a fever or anything just spots,that are now blistering.Other bloggers have said that when their kids have it, they vegged and slept alot.Not my kid of course,still full of hyper beans.Couldnt have had even alittle down time.LOL

Dance Recital

2008-06-03T01:35:00.003-06:00

Frankie had her recital this weekend, it was so good. She did awesome.It was a really good show this year the theme was All about town,because it it Melvilles Centennial this year. Frankies Jazz class preformed to "Carwash". They did a pyramid to loud cheers. Frankie was the bottom middle in the pryamid.
But to end the night on a sour note,someone stole my Sirius radio out of my van.The only took the main part, so it is of no use to them.But,when Joe went to report it, there was another mom from dancing there. She had her two little ones with her, and she was crying.She told Joe her digital camera,video camera and XM radio were stolen out of her vechicle.She said I dont care about any of it,but all my pictures are gone.Swimming lessons,Camping.Then I thought,and I was worried about my radio,that can be easily replaced.I hope by some miracle whoever took her camera would drop off the card at the postoffice or something. We live in such a small town it would get back to her.

Alyse, My niece

2008-06-02T21:23:00.003-06:00

God, I love this little girl. Wish I could see her more. I pray more for her than any other person.

Her parents have both screwed up their lives so much. But she is still so well adjusted. I wish I could scoop her up and keep her safe.

She is my brothers daughter and he wont see her until next year. I hope she is enough to help him find his way.

Love you baby girl.

It's all coming down!

2008-05-19T14:03:00.004-06:00

Here are a few pictures of the tear down. Joe worked his butt off on these 2 weeks off. He said he has to go back to work for a vacation!
There used to be two walls on the sides of the stairs,not anymore. I will finally have the open concept I have alwyas wanted.Plus a few pictures of the extra lots we bought beside our house.By next year I hope to have it all fenced in.
The funny thing about this house is at the front, it looks like a little cottage. But its not, it is actually quite large and long! Boy, I cannot wait for it to be finished! I wish, I wish........

A Frankie memory

2008-05-05T00:47:00.001-06:00

I was reading someones blog with all the little things her kids come up with during the week. And I remembered one from Frankie when she was about 4 years old.

"Frankie eat your chicken please" says mom
"I do not like chicken" says Frankie
"Frankie you have to eat some meat" says mom
"I dont like it!" says Frankie
"I guess you are going to be a vegetarian then" says mom
"yes I am" says Frankie
"Actually,I think I will be an Italian,like my dad" says Frankie

They grow up so fast,my little baby. Cherish the moments, create new ones.

Family fun and a great weekend

2008-04-29T22:52:00.001-06:00

We travelled to Saskatoon for the first time this weekend. It was about a three and a half hour drive. No Joe of course he is working. My dad met us in Saskatoon to watch Matteo.
For Christmas this year I asked for tickets to Phantom of the Opera, for myself and Frankie.I got my dad to get one for mom as well. It was fantasic,I did see it when I was thirteen. We had really good seats,except for a tall lady in front of us that had to move her complete head with the actors on the stage. Oh ya a nd a woman hacking up a lung behind us.
We also went to the incorrect stadium and had to race across town to make it!

We then shopped our hearts out the next day,the best we could on Sunday short shopping hours.Frankie had 200 dollars to spend. She had her heart set on LuLu Lemon.She honestly was more excited about this store than Disneyland. We left there spending 300 dollars on an eleven year old!!!!

She got a pair of pants(that they are hemming for free,plus 9 dollars shipping to get here) A pair of shorts, A hoody,four headbands and a waterbottle!There shopping bags are fantastic and reusable.Frankie uses her old one for a school bag.

My only complaint about that store is that it was packed,I mean people on top of eachother. But people were leaving unsatisfied because tons of stuff on the shelves only had size 2 or 4. When we these stores get it that is not the average size! They would sell so much more.

We had a wonderful dinner at a local Italian restaurant and I wished we would have had more time. Next time!

Learning slowly but surely

2008-04-16T23:53:00.001-06:00

I just learnt how to get my profile picture off facebook, onto my desktop. And then on to my profile. Since we have a new computer, I dont have alot of those older pictures on here anymore.Thanx Joe!

This picture is me and Matteo after his first family party. So, I would say Late January, early febuary 2006.

Sunny days and road trips!

2008-04-14T23:35:00.001-06:00

This beautiful sunny day has made me long for a road trip~

Haircut

2008-04-13T23:16:00.001-06:00

Matteo got a haircut the day before Disneyland. It was not our regular girl.It was terrible. And to top it off it was 5 times more than we pay here in Melville. And the girl was sooooo rude. I had an appointment booked with a girl that had cut my really long hair off in December. So, I went in a little early since my mom was with us, to see if anyone had any openings for Matteo. There was a girl available. When she was asked to cut Matteos hair, I saw the LOOK! I should have walked out right then.I was desparate since we were going away the next day.

She didnt speak to him the entire time.She rolled her eyes when he would fidget. Keeping in mind Matteo has had no less than ten haircuts in his short 2 years.The first one a 4 months.He is a pro. And it is the one time when he actually sits and almost behaves!!! But I think he was feeling her frustration and was not behaving. NOt really bad though, I have seen kids really freaking out. He was just squirming.

Anyways, last week I let Joe practically buzz cut him, because everytime I would look at his hair I would feel angry. (about the actual experience,NOT Matteo).

So, now I am going to try to grow out his hair, past the awkward faze.

And if you were wondering the girl that had cut my hair so wonderfully in December. Totally did a number on me that I am still paying for till this day.Needless, to say it was a bad salon day!!!!!

He his still really cute though!!! Those were a couple pictures with the new short cut from dad.

The dungeon and the new place

2008-04-11T16:41:00.001-06:00

Well, its done we are now the proud owners of a run down, kinda stinky, dingy house. But it is ours and if I close my eyes, I see the potential.
So, for now we will continue to live in the Dungeon. It is not so bad but really small and the bathrom is tiny.And we shower upstairs.
But I can see the end result and it is a everything brand spanking new house.Yippee

Posting issues

2008-04-09T00:31:00.001-06:00

I was obviously having some memory problems, couldnt remember what pics I had already used. I also am quite computer challenged to put it nicely, and I have no idea how to put a picture. Then blog a bit then picture. Mine all come out in a row.Oh well, guess I will learn!

Weekend in Winnipeg

2008-04-09T00:19:00.001-06:00

We had alot of fun at the car show. The hotel Delta Winnipeg was really nice too. And such a good price.
The girls waited 2 and a half hours to see Jason Earles. aka Jackson from the show Hannah Montana. They looked so in love. So cute.

Matteo was so happy to seee Mater. Hard to tell from his pictures though. He is doing this new thing as soon as you are about to click. He gets a really serious face. Still cute though.He thought he had to pose by touching the tires of all the cars.

Snow and blah

2008-04-05T02:16:00.001-06:00

It snowed again, this is getting depressing!

It is 2 am and I am not in the slightest mood for sleep.

Joe comes home tomorrow, so I have to drive over a hour each way to get him.

My scanner/printer is being funny so, I couldnt do a post about our fun weekend.

Oh ya, we bought a house for cheap, but we have redo every detail about it.

So, we will be living in the dungeon forever( ok a long time)

Matteo has hit the terrible 2's witha vengence

Frankie is having honesty issues, with the littlest things(just tell the truth jeez)

I am alittle bored

I am almost 2 months late ( probably just hormone problem, which explains all the complaining)

Just one of those weeks

I am done now, thanks for listening

I must be nuts!

2008-03-26T16:15:00.001-06:00

Last night I was half listening to the TV and I heard "Mater from Cars at Winnipeg car show". Well as you all know we travelled to Disney last month. And we had so much fun.But the one thing we wanted most of all for Matteo was to see Mater and Lightening Mcqueen. But they were both getting refurbished. I almost cryed( i did actually feel alittle teary. It was something I wanted for my little boy soo much.

Anywho, Mater is going to be in Winnipeg on the weekend. Now I have never been to Manitoba. And to go without Joe too! I am alittle scared it is about 4 hrs away and we will spend the night. And on Sunday Jackson from Hannah Montana will be there as well.So, Frankie and her friend Sidney are excitedabout it too.

The admission is really cheap, which is great since it will be a bundle in gas. Should be a real adventure, wish me luck! I know I can do it I did drive all the way to BC with the kids and no Joe last summer. I am a trooper.

Have you ever had one of those nights?

2008-03-24T00:57:00.001-06:00

Well, I am on my own with the kids. Mom and dad are in kamloops finishing up on the sell of their old house and Joe went back to work on Friday.I have been doing the single mom thing for more than a year now (for 2 weeks at a time).And I am always ok with. But I guess lately cause we have been staying with my parents I am used to someone being upstairs.
Anyway, sometimes not very often I scare myself into a frenzy.This was the case last night. I am a night owl but i am also a very light sleeper. I sleep witha fan on so I dont hear other noises that wake me up.
Last night I had just gone to bed at ten to 2 and I hear my parents dog upstairs barking and going nuts.(he does not bark for no reason)I jump up. What do I do lock the door down here in the dungeon basement or go and investigate. I decide to go look. I called my dad on his cell. Wake him up and tell him whats up. My dad is great he said ok go look. So long story short,I tiptoe upstairs while talking to dad nothing there but the dog is agitated. I take him down stairs. I double lock the basement door and try to go to bed. Now i am hearing every creak and the dogs collar is clanking. I feel like my heart his going jump out of my chest. I finally fall asleep at 4, I think I was asleep for 2 minutes and there is a huge bang.I jump out of my skin again, until I realize it was Matteo that had kicked the wall.
I turned on the fan and finally fell asleep!
All I have to say is thank goodness I have a helpful 11 year old daughter. That was mommies helper who took over this morning. Thanks Frankie!!!
So anyway I am over it and hope I can sleep soon. Cause tomorrow frankie is off to Regina over night!! poor mama.

Are these the faces of rude girls!!! Sassy maybe

2008-03-15T00:54:00.001-06:00

Sick and more sick!!!

2008-03-15T00:24:00.001-06:00

Well, first Frankie was sick at the beginning of the week. But I think that it went alittle deeper with her. Problems at school. I am at my witts end.You know teachers are wonderful. Had my life been different I wouldve been one. But That being said,I have a major problem with someone making my child feel small.Being new to our town we were warned about this particular teacher. And I told Frankie to keep an open mind and not to listen to gossip.
So, i went to a teacher meeting. I set it up by myself, she didnt ask to see me. I asked for the meeting on Tuesday,Wednesday she had a consellor pull Frankie out of class and discuss why she is so mad all the time. Frankie came home so upset. But my girl knows to stick up for herself so she told the consellor only her teacher upsets her. Thursday the teacher pulled Frankie out of the class to tell her she is rude and disrespectful. Oh and she gives dirty looks.
Thursday nite I arrived at the school and spoke to the principal. He admitted to expecting alot of parents from this class! So, my thoughts are would you not do something about this after years of complaints. I walked over to talk to her teacher.She greeted me witha huge smile and after a couple minutes I realized she wasnt going to tell me anything about my RUDE child. So I asked her to show me on her report card where it says all the negative behavior Frankie has. So, of course she couldnt came up with tons of reasons why children misunderstand her. I left as angry as I was when I got there! But let me tell the line up of moms waiting to talk to her was huge.
So, I think the next step is going to be a big meeting.

And now my asthma prone little boy is sick again. Heres to a better week.

I wonder....

2008-02-29T00:25:00.001-07:00

I wonder if it is strange that I havent told any friends or family about my blog? I may just be writing to myself. But I dont know if I am ready to share. With strangers sure but family not quite. Seems to me maybe it should be the way around.
Maybe when I get alittle more sure of myself.

A few pics

2008-02-25T14:46:00.002-07:00

The kids had so much fun and to be there with their cousins. Priceless! And cousins too of course! I am lucky to be so close with them. They are the sisters I never had.

Back to life as normal

2008-02-25T14:33:00.001-07:00

The trip is all done. It was so much fun. Over too quick.Next time I would do 10 days. Cause once you have payed for your flights, the only extra cost is food and hotel. And hotel is actually the cheap part.
Now we have to get back on some sort of a routine. but its tough well school starts on Wednesday. We will try then and back to dieting or rather Healthy living!!! hopefully with some weight loss.

Packing Panic Frenzy

2008-02-06T18:05:00.001-07:00

I am such an overpacker. So, you can imagine that leaving in 4 days for Disneyland, has put me in near convulsions. I cant take the stress of it. And to top it off Joe is away at work again during the packing process. So, no help. I go through this every time and then end up not needing everything.
At Christmas we travelled to Kamloops by plane. I had to pay 50 dollar overweight fee, there and back. And that was with putting a ton of stuff on the bus. I am hopeless.
A week in a different climate has sent me into a tailspin. I have bought new clothes for everyone and I am sure I will buY some there. Yet I still pack all our old stuff.
I mean I know Matteo is only 2 and quite messy. But like 17 shirts for 7 days!!!!! And that doesnt include the ones he will be wearing and the ones in the diaper bag.
And to top it all off, I have to pack a fan for my husband.No matter what time of year. The man needs a fan and the louder the better.
I am sure I will make it through but to top it all off Matteo has been being terrible and hitting everyone in site. Spitting out his drinks, throwing food and SCREAMING at the top of his lungs.
Well, I will keep packing and Matteo will keep unpacking. THe airline Im sure will once again make a pretty penny off of me.

Our little life!

2008-01-31T15:51:00.001-07:00

We are from BC. But after 8 years of secondary infertility, I got my little miracle. (The funny thing is my daughter was a little accident, when we were 19). Anyway, I have worked Frankies whole life, 2 jobs for most of it.So, while I was on Maternity leave, I came up with a plan. And the biggest problem with this plan was to convince my husband. To make a long story short we picked up our family, my mom and dad too, and moved two provinces away to Saskatchewan. It was hard at first but the best decision ever. And now we are even doing better financially. My husband works 2weeks on and off. In Fort Mcmurray.
I enjoy being a stay at home mom and I thought it was mostly for Matteo. But as it turns out it is just as good for Frankie. Mom doesnt have to work till 11 pm anymore. And she can call me anytime.( kinda became the cool mom).
Well, we bought a house when we moved. It was inexpensive, so in November we sold it. But there was nothing to buy and our house sold in 2 hrs. We didnt know that would happen considering it was on the market for 2 yrs when we bought. So, we are kinda at a stand still.Living in my mom and dads basement. Sharing a shower and kitchen. And Frankie is 2 floors up from us, but we make the best of it.

Here I come.

2008-01-31T15:46:00.001-07:00

So, I have been reading blogs for about a year now. I think it all started about a year ago. I goggled something and SAJ's blog came up. I found it interesting cause my son is the same age as bb. so, I silently read for a year. So, now I am going to try. I am not very computer friendly, so I will have to get my 11 year old to help me out. CRAZY.
SO Here I go!!!!