Merry Chrstmas

Merry Christmas! From my family to yours........



The Franklin concert. Matteo made it half way through.He had a missed his nap,so I new that we were headed for disaster...


Frankie didnt want to go.Sometimes the age gap is alittle difficult.Then we stayed in a hotel,that I have tried twice and I have decided i won't be staying there again.But of course since Matteo fell asleep at Franklin. He was all about partying at the hotel and didnt go to sleep until 1am.Yikes!!




Have a safe and Happy Christmas!

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All cousins and spouses,doing the "chee" smile. Italian joke with them.
These two pictures are from Joes other cousins wedding last year,but since I didnt have a blog back then,I will show them now.

My beautiful guest book girl:
A girl and her dad:
And our Lobster feast. My mom and dad went on a holiday to Nova Scotia(my moms dream)and flew 10 lobsters and freash scallops home.Yummo! That blond guy is my dad and yes biological!People always thought I must have been from a previous marriage my mom had.But since they been together since she was 15 and got married straight out of highschool.Its highly unlikely!They just celebrated their 33rd.
Arent they cute.They both are going though some health scares right now,they have had so much stress with my brother.I hope they will both be ok and live long and healthy lives.Love you both.

Hard week, but it is shaping up nicely

I have had a hard week. I think it may have been the hardest week of married life but, also groundbreaking.

The other night on the phone with Joe I lost it.To make a long long story short. I finally let my husband have it. Dont get me wrong, he loves me but honestly most of the time does a pretty crappy time of showing it. He is a man's man and I have always known this.But it was breaking me down little by little and I snapped. And after he finished with being angry and alittle nasty. I think it hit him that i was not kidding. {this did not all happen in one night}

I have let him know, that I need some understanding, compassion and decency in my life. And I will not be his or anyone elses punching bag any longer. And after it all I felt physically sick litterly.But also at a kind of peace.

Well, we are going to go to marrige conselling and without joe being forced. This is a major breakthrough for him. Usally tough guy would say it was for sissys.

Tonight was wonderful,we had a really nice conversation on the phone and for the first time in years i didnt feel like I was in "trouble" for something. Dont get we wrong i am not a total pushover, but I put up with alot of negative people in my life. And I find myself giving in alot. Well, not anymore because I owe to my daughter to show her the proper way for a woman to be treated.

Frankie did overhear some cause she was hiding on the stairs, but we had a wonderful talk and for the first time I was asked "are you guys getting a divorce". And it broke my heart. No I dont think we are, but honestly I finaly feel strong enough to say that if I feel that things are returning to old ways. I have enough strengh to ask for one. Which is sad in a way,but good in the way that I am reclaiming myself. Lets pray it never comes to that,because I love my husband. But I have to learn to love myself again.

Ok enough of the deep stuff, Frankie had a "no more miss ..... party". If you remember from a previous post that she had a pretty difficult teacher this year. So she had her 5 best gal pals over for a sleepover. It brings back so many memories. Only back then I didnt have my own digital camera, and half of the film would've been exposed. Girl Power!