He didn't lie

About 3 weeks ago Matteo cut his hair almost to the scalp with those scissors that hardly cut paper. So, he got in some trouble for doing something wrong. ( Not that I dont remember doing that twice at a much older age)And all the while I tried not to laugh. I did made it through.


The scissors were taken away. Then a couple a days ago a cute little face said to his mom. " Mommy I promise if you let me use my scissors I wont cute my hair. All I want to do is make valentines for my friends". Melt my heart of course you can buddy but no haircutting. He played and cut for more than a hour. Wow I thought this is great. " ummm mommy, I didnt cut my hair, but I did cut a hole in my pajama pants and top". Parenting fail, I laughed.

Devil Kitty

Quite the imagination on this one....His new favorite song goes something like this, Hey ScoobyDoo they are coming OVER you,better solve that misery!

Chugging Along

Been Awhile but I am still here....


So much going on and most of it not pleasant. This has been one of the more turbulant times of my life. But we will get through and I know others have been through worse. I dont want to feel like I am complaining all the time. But in all reality, I dont say much. Aside from a bit of venting on Twitter....


But all the same I have so much to be thankful for..

A stronger bond with my husband.

A stronger self

Two of the best kids around(even though we are going through Early teens with one}


And really that is all I can ask for...

Well that and maybe a small lottery!

Alittle more Spring please

We went out to play. It was sunny. But still frozen.



Matteo's imagination is so vivid. Frankie had two make believe friends Gordy and Nice. They went everywhere with us. But Matteo just in the last 2 weeks everything has become make believe. He has animals,toys friends and he acts out characters and animals. He has really been cracking me up.While we were outside he was a deer with a "huge rack".






Then the neighbour decided to work on his tractor. We dont live on farmland buddy. I got a cute picture of him on it but then it was like being in L.A and our fun was over.

Doctors,needles and Sphincters oh my....

Exhausted after a day of poking and proding.

Well, sometimes a mom does know a thing or two. I knew Matteo didnt have Asthma. And the specialist confirmed it today!He has a weak Sphincter..

I didnt even know we had one let alone two of these,but we do. One is at the top of the stomach and one at the bottom.His weak one is the top. What does this mean? Well it means we will have to continue worrying everytime he coughs that there will be vomit. The alternative is a life threatening operation. Ummm pretty sure we can live with some puke!And he may grow out of it.

The Doctor did tell me what I had already figured.Many many doctors are taking the easy way out and labeling kids with asthma.

We also went for his first blood tests.That was traumatic for both of us. He kept moving so the had to poke him 3 times and dig around it was terrible.The nurse had to completly cover my 37pound three year old baby with her entire body. As well as me holding down his legs and one hand on his chest.He is a tough little guy.The blood tests are to check his lymphnoids and to try and figure out why a little scratch becomes a staph infection.All in all it was a very informative day.

But he is on the mend and maybe if he rested alittle he would get 100% better.This kid never sits still!

Mama guilt

Well, the sickie bug has hit Matteo. I think I forgot to knock on wood when I said he hadnt been sick in a while. I just dont get it with him. Most kids get sick and within a week they are better. Not him nooo. He gets sicker and sicker and we are close to 2 weeks now. It is times like this when my mommy guilt comes out. I never breastfed him not one time. I had planned to do just alittle and I didnt.{After what I considered a traumatic birth experience}. I did breastfeed Frankie for almost seven months and I feel she is much healthier.

But I still believe in a mothers choice and despise it when other moms are judgemental.It was my choice. I am a large, extremely large breasted woman and unless you are,you cannot possibly understand what it is like to breastfeed. Aside from the fact I couldnt even find a nursing bra in my size. And I am sure online I could have got one.But at the time I didnt have the means for online shopping.

With Frankie I was much smaller but have always been big in that department and I remembered how hard it was. Trying not to suffocate my little baby with a 40 pound weight on her face.

But that all being said,Why now do I feel so guilty. It is something I cannot change. But if I do have one more. If I am so blessed.I think I would try to breastfeed at least for a couple weeks.

We are off to see the doctor tomorrow and to ask for a referral to a peditrician.Get better little boy cause mama is mighty tired.


Daddy cut off his hair. I was so sad it took so long to grow out.But it is already like 2 inches longer.So maybe we will try again.

Even on a sad day...He cracks me up

Guess who's 3!

Matteo turned 3 on January 4th. He is such a big boy. We were going to try to quite the soother habit on the 5th. Well as of January 1st it is a gonner. He has asked for it a couple times but no biggy.





A Matteoism

mama: Matteo you need to have some patience.

Matteo: The patience is in the dishwasher.



My life was missing something and when this little miracle was born all the pieces fit....

New Year's Eve

Wii New Years Eve night. We even got gramma to play!





Joe made us some Strawberry wine. I am not a drinker but with alittle sprite it was really good!
Low key night,but fun was had by all!

Merry Chrstmas

Merry Christmas! From my family to yours........



The Franklin concert. Matteo made it half way through.He had a missed his nap,so I new that we were headed for disaster...


Frankie didnt want to go.Sometimes the age gap is alittle difficult.Then we stayed in a hotel,that I have tried twice and I have decided i won't be staying there again.But of course since Matteo fell asleep at Franklin. He was all about partying at the hotel and didnt go to sleep until 1am.Yikes!!




Have a safe and Happy Christmas!

Teach what we Preach

Today Matteo told his sister "put me down freak". And also said a swear to his dad. Needless to say I am less than happy about it and had to put his daddy in a timeout! {Ok,I must admit the freak thing took me by so much surprise,I laughed and hard}.But the swearing not so funny.

A big problem I have found in this house that daddy works away for two weeks at a time and it is getting really hard for him to remember we are not "the guys".He has never been an overly sensitive man,ok not sensitive at all. I make up for the both of us I think. But Matteo is so much more impressionable than Frankie. When she was four and got tricked into saying crap,she almost had a breakdown. Not my little man,it cracks him up and he listens intently for any type of bad word for correcting.I feel like this is an uphill battle that daddy doesn't think is such a big deal.

Matteo is such a handfull{like watching 3 kids},I do note need to add swearing to the mix!But on that not he can be so peaceful....



WHEN HE IS SLEEPING!

Date and glasses

This is me in my new glasses.
I have to tell you,they have caused quite a stir on facebook. My family and friends have been praising the look.But they said if they didnt know it was my page they wouldnt know it was me. I dont think I look that different.I think it is my hair also.
Oh well I have to wear them though,because my left eye has gotten dramatically worse and I just had my old pair for show. I never wore them.
Matteo and I had a great time at Thomas and he got a ton of loot,the guy next to us commented on all his stuff."Boy,you got everything" he said to Matteo.Well he did get alot but I would never say anything that rudely to someone.Because you know what there was a time when I wouldnt have been able to afford any of it,let alone a ticket. So,if I want to do something special for my kids I will. And yes I will admit they have been alittle spoiled lately,but so what.


We topped it all off by a visit to Chukie Cheese the next day on the way home.After a nice sleep in a big hotel bed.Just me and my little guy,it was great.

Happy Halloween

Happy Halloween,

Woody and the pirate will get ready soon. And Woody actually gets it this year,so he is really excited. It is kinda crazy to have one that wants to go out in a group and one that needs his mama!Be safe out there