Tuesday, February 3, 2009

If I am being honest....

If I am being truly honest, I am not happy with myself. It is something I have to work and I am trying.

If I am being honest, I have put off meeting new people in Saskatchewan.

If I am being honest I despise intimacy with my husband right now.

If I am being honest I avoid mirrors at all costs.

If I am being honest I have been afraid to make friends.



Now today I have decided.I have to respect myself,if I dont how can I expect other people too. I will admitt I am on a life change. In the process I have lost 19 pounds.I have also come to realize if someone doesnt like me because of how I look,then it wasnt worth being their friend anyway.I am not doormat and I am not a victim. And I need to stop acting as such.


My husband and I have set up counselling. We have decided we have something worth saving. We will not just throw away 14 years together and 12 and half years of marriage.

This is me,Brandee. Hello

3 comments:

Tracey said...

Counseling is good. I hope that you are both honest and able to heal whatever hurts there are.

Hang in there. You guys can do this...

Rosjuane said...

Aww that is sad that you felt that way, but at least you can admit it and decide to do something about it!!

Cheryl said...

fighting for your marriage will be worth every bit of tears.
Keep up the weight loss and make time to take care of YOU.....