Cause its been awhile

I think I went through a dry spell,happens to the best of us I suppose.We did so much on our trip to BC and then if you can believe it Joe and I got suckered into flying down to BC ourselves a couple weeks later for another wedding. His cousins this time. It was nice,quick,expensive and my first time away from Matteo for more than a night.
The first wedding we went to was my baby cousin Tracy,who by the way is not a baby and has a beautiful little girl herself.She was a junior bridesmaid at my wedding when she was 12. Our familes are so close because we were raised together.
The next picture is my favorite,it brings tears to my eyes each time I look at it. This is my Nonna(gramma) and all of her great grandchildren starting from my Frankie being the oldest.And finishes with my cousin Jamies twins who were barly a month old at their aunties wedding.This is also very special being that my mom and dad got to bring my niece Alyse.My brother is not available right now(another post in its self)and her mom is shall we say alittle difficult sometimes.But she let us have her for 4 whole days.She is the one standing on the chair crying for Frankie to hold her.
It was a wonderful day,with only my brother missing.

I am having a hard time posting pictures on this one. So I will had the picture of Joes cousins wedding next time and it wont be such a long stretch.

The Ocean

One thing we did on vacation was go to the ocean in Whiterock. My cousin Booked us a hotel for my belated birthday present. We had so much fun and the kids experienced some firsts,like turning over rocks to look for crabs.



Matteo had alot of fun after he got over his fear. But he sure ended up with a nasty rash between his legs from the sand! He walked a little funny for a couple days but I am sure he would say it was worth it!

Back and not quite ready to roll

We are back! We were gone for 28 days! Such a long haul and of course Matteo's asthma had to make a nice comeback on the last couple days. It always seems to happen on the tail end off our trips.There we were in Hope Bc on the side of the highway down in the bushes with snakes,cleaning up a pukey 2 year old.

Needless to say the trip that always takes 2 days home, took 3 this time.But all and all it was one of our better ones. But so hot, and at my Nonna's{gramma}. There is no air conditioning, but forget that there is no air flow. Because she doesnt open the windows. And in Vancouver it seems that they are having problems with the little 4 legged friends. So, between that and the heat,I dont think I slept more than 4 hrs a night there. Thankfully,in Kamloops for the almost 2 weeks we were there,we did have air conditioning and no little friends.

We did alot and of course i did not take near enough pictures. I am terrible with that. But I will post some next and a few of the events we did do.

We're off,we're off,well almost!

This time tomorrow I hope to be somewhere close to the Saskatchewan and Alberta border.We are heading to BC. Mom,the kids and I. Joe will meet us by plane on the 25th.This time I am going to try to make it into BC before stopping for the night,cause the journey is 3 hrs longer this time.

Some of plans include: visiting and staying an entire week with my Nonna(gramma),while there spending a week and a half with cousins.(Who are also my bestfriends). Going to Whiterock overnight in a fancy hotel on the ocean.A present for my birthday from my cousin. Playland,going to discount hair salon store with a different cousin to get a expensive flat iron at her cost.Yippee.Lots and lots of shopping.And my little cousins wedding.Where does time go she was 12 in my wedding. Now she is a mama and getting married.

Then we are off to Joes family. Which is not quite the same.2 weeks there,but good news his mom now has internet. So half way through the trip I will at least be able to catch up abit.I do have friends and my niece in kamloops to spend time with. Then it is back to Vancouver to pick up my mom,spend a couple days then do the journey back home again.

So I am off..........

5 Things and Time ago

I felt like I needed something to replace my last post:


10 years ago: I was 22 years old. I had a 2 year old and we had moved away from our families to Vancouver. I loved being "home" and Joe didnt so we moved back to Kamloops,the next year.


5 years ago: I was working two jobs and living in our first real "owned home". And I was still recovering from the 3 surgeries on my ankle. And taking a break from the fertility game.

1 year ago: Life was pretty much the same as it is now. Frankie finishing school. Joe working. But we still lived in our own house.


Yesterday: I had alot of appointments,payed for the lawnmower to be fixed.Getting ready for Mom,dad and Joe to come home.


5 snacks I like: popcorn,chocolate,almonds,pop{why i can never loose weight}, sunflwer seeds

5 books I like to read: I love to read but havent done it much lately,People magazine,romance novels{Nora Roberts},a book on polgamy right now.Sears,Computer articles

5 foods I dislike: Tomatoes { but I will eat sauce,salsa,ketchup} just no chunks.Mushrooms{i do not even like the smell} Cooked carrots.love them raw. Liver. Pizza Pops.

5 bad habits: Not sticking to a diet,biting my nails,to much snacks,skipping meals,not enough water

5 pet peeves: rudeness,cashiers who do not say hello,bragging,empty carton in the fridge,telemarketers

5 things I enjoy: my children,my cousins,when my children are happy,watching dancing,seafood{like I am having tonight}

5 TV shows I like: Young and the Restless{memories of when I used to watch it,with my Gramma} So You think You can dance.Jon and Kate plus eight{although I find Kate alittle to controlling} Amazing race.Reruns of Friends,everbody loves Raymond

5 people I would love to meet: Gordan Ramsey,Jon and Kate,this is hard. I would love to meet up with a few friends that I drifted apart from. Mostly because my life started so much sooner than theirs.

5 things I would never wear: bikini{even if I were skinny} tube top {same} pink{never,ever. I will have to tell you about my weird pink phobia one day}long socks,wool

Thats it, afew things about myself. One day I will have to do the 100 things about myself. But then this took me long enough!

Hard week, but it is shaping up nicely

I have had a hard week. I think it may have been the hardest week of married life but, also groundbreaking.

The other night on the phone with Joe I lost it.To make a long long story short. I finally let my husband have it. Dont get me wrong, he loves me but honestly most of the time does a pretty crappy time of showing it. He is a man's man and I have always known this.But it was breaking me down little by little and I snapped. And after he finished with being angry and alittle nasty. I think it hit him that i was not kidding. {this did not all happen in one night}

I have let him know, that I need some understanding, compassion and decency in my life. And I will not be his or anyone elses punching bag any longer. And after it all I felt physically sick litterly.But also at a kind of peace.

Well, we are going to go to marrige conselling and without joe being forced. This is a major breakthrough for him. Usally tough guy would say it was for sissys.

Tonight was wonderful,we had a really nice conversation on the phone and for the first time in years i didnt feel like I was in "trouble" for something. Dont get we wrong i am not a total pushover, but I put up with alot of negative people in my life. And I find myself giving in alot. Well, not anymore because I owe to my daughter to show her the proper way for a woman to be treated.

Frankie did overhear some cause she was hiding on the stairs, but we had a wonderful talk and for the first time I was asked "are you guys getting a divorce". And it broke my heart. No I dont think we are, but honestly I finaly feel strong enough to say that if I feel that things are returning to old ways. I have enough strengh to ask for one. Which is sad in a way,but good in the way that I am reclaiming myself. Lets pray it never comes to that,because I love my husband. But I have to learn to love myself again.

Ok enough of the deep stuff, Frankie had a "no more miss ..... party". If you remember from a previous post that she had a pretty difficult teacher this year. So she had her 5 best gal pals over for a sleepover. It brings back so many memories. Only back then I didnt have my own digital camera, and half of the film would've been exposed. Girl Power!

Prices like Gold and Red Spots

We spent the Fathers Day weekend without any Fathers around.It seems like Joe is always working his two weeks on during any sort of holiday. He has missed all our birthdays, Easter,Thanksgiving,Halloween,Mothers Day and now Fathers day,this past year. But we try to celebrate on alternate days. We just always make sure he is home for Christmas. Although he did miss New Years. Maybe next year will work out differently.
We were talking though about how I never make him feel bad for missing these things. There are a couple wives of guys where he works, that make their husbands feel crappy about it.Phone them crying and everything. These guys have pretty stressfull jobs and do not need the added stress of things they cannot change. It is a hard life but they do it for their families and so we can for the most part stay home if we want.I appreciate what he does and I KNOW, I could never do it. Everytime he comes home he notices the kids have grown or their hair is longer. And especially all the new stuff Matteo comes up with. Anyway, Joe we appreciate you!

So, Friday we let Frankie skip the afternoon of school and we took Gramma with us. We dropped off daddy and went Chuckie Cheese,Winners and Tony Roma's for dinner. Was alot of fun but we got home really late. We had a double header soccer morning. And yippee Frankie scored a goal.


Then we went to Ituna for a community garage sale. OM Goodness, it was the funniest garage sales ever. Let alone most of it belonged in a dumpster!(literly)The rest was priced like gold,some of which were actually priced higher than retail.A couple examples,White Rain Tame shampoo in the older packaging selling for $5.00. Retail $2.49. A big durable but beat up kids slide $250.00 dollars. I said pardon me and had to turn around do hide my chuckles! What has happened to bargains.



Sunday, was uneventful except for Matteo got Hand,Foot Mouth Disease. Which after looking it up sounds much worse than it is. He didnt have a fever or anything just spots,that are now blistering.Other bloggers have said that when their kids have it, they vegged and slept alot.Not my kid of course,still full of hyper beans.Couldnt have had even alittle down time.LOL